Reality Bytes.

meme++

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 11:46:59 GMT

oy. here we go again.

coz i was tagged by Hitori:

1. Post these rules.
2. Post ten random facts/habits about yourself.
3. Choose ten people to tag and list their names.

i guess i do need to update so here goes... but. i'm not tagging anybody. most of my friends have either quit blogging or have already done this so...

...

一 i'd rather hang out with guys than with girls. being the geek that i am, i find it easier to talk to guys about lots of things, from the stuff i like to the stuff that concerns all of humanity. i like talking to guys, especially when it comes to intellectual discussions. i love intellectual discussions. the girls around my area talk of shallower things, from the latest movie releases, to the latest shows, to gossip galore. sometimes one just wants to quit thinking about what's in front of them and just ponder on some things actually worth thinking about.

ニ once i realize i like something i instantly get hooked. Spore, Portal, DTX Mania, thousand piece jigsaws, papercraft, anime, photo manipulation, coding... gawd see how geeky i am? haha.

三 i love autumn. i love orange. what started out as an attempt to join the blogging community led to the creation of a random blog name (fierydepths) which triggered my obsessive-compulsive behavior (fiery in fierydepths==orange/peach layout) which led to me getting obsessed with autumn themes and colors. and with that coinciding with the season my birthday belongs to, i think it's awesome.

四 i used to hate essays. i didn't know how to write essays before. compared to my classmates answering essay questions in one or two paragraphs, i used to answer mine in one or two sentences. now look at how i constuct my blog entries. woohoo.

五 i am a walking contradiction. case in point: i keep saying i ABSOLUTELY HATE mushy gushy sappiness. but... look at my recent posts below!

六 i tend to practice the ma�ana habit a whole lot. it's either because i have too much to do or i've had nothing to do. i need more inspiration, more motivation, more will power. and probably more coffee, less caffeine tolerance. arrgh. acads, acads, acads.

七 i am allergic to peanuts, and will always be allergic to peanuts. even a whiff of peanut scent would get my throat to swell and itch and make me go berzerk. peanuts can kill me. i used to be allergic to other stuff too. some other nuts, fish and other seafood, citrus fruits, chocolate, certain soaps and lotions... yeah. i was a freak.

八 the only decent thing i can do in a household is cleaning. i can't cook, wash clothes, iron, water plants properly, do any gardening at all, or sew clothes. if i had a husband who'd request me to stay at home as a housewife i'd say HELL NO.

九 i want to learn japanese, but my ma�ana habit always, always gets to me. i'll find some motivation eventually...

十 i am sleepy, i am going to sleep now. that counts as a fact ok? XD

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first monthsary!

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 12:26:26 GMT

amazing how such newly-blossomed sparks of bliss can evolve into an emotion way deeper than expected in such a short span of time.

but, keep it short and simple, they say. so here.

i love you. beyond time, beyond reason, beyond existence. i really do.

grateful.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 14:09:15 GMT

i've been scanning through my past entries in this blog. again.

i was actually quite amused by what i saw. i saw, inscribed in virtual ink, the oh-so-amazingly-complex thoughts of a what... 15-year-old? 16-year-old? apparently i really do have a wide vocabulary and an even wider imagination to come up with so many metaphors. XD

but i noticed something that most posts had in common: the atmosphere of depression. the complaints of always feeling insatiable, always feeling half-empty. always feeling that something's missing.

and after typing those last few words above, i just realized that right now i feel the exact opposite.

while scanning through those depressing posts, my past work of fiction whispered to me through every scroll, "when was the last time you felt complete?"

my heart answered for me, "just now."

mind over heart... somehow that doesn't work at all anymore. but at least it served its purpose the first few months after i committed to it. i was told that to revert (read: heart over mind) would be difficult once i got used to thinking "mind over heart". i didn't mind. i thought i could stay in my zombie state forever.

eventually i found out i was wrong, and that i really needed to change back to how i once was. but, it was hard. from being a zombie i had to revert to being human once again.

only coz i believe i've found someone who would keep me human, who would keep me sane, who would give me what i've been missing and patch them into the holes i had in the fabric of my soul.

and. immensely. i thank him for that.

cleanup.

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 02:58:06 GMT

new years demand cleanup. well, usually, anyway. after the festivities we have to pick up all pieces of litter we've made during the past year.

so far i've cleaned up my:
[x] room
[x] desktop
[ ] hard drive
[x] blogdrive notifications list
(coz i'm sure those who subscribed to my posts eons ago have already marked the emails as spam LOOOOOOOL)
[ ] blog sidebar
[ ] java code projects
[ ] KaliKaSan-related stuff

oh Romeo.

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 02:32:46 GMT

nakakainis ka.

oo, ikaw.

ikaw na kausap ko kagabi.

alam mo kung bakit? mas lalo kasi kitang namimiss dahil sa mga sinabi mo kagabi.

nakakainis ka. wala ka sa tabi ko.

nakakainis ka. di kita mayakap.

yun pa naman ang kinahihiligan kong gawin. yumakap sa tao.

natatawa ako sa sarili ko. naisip ko na sana noon pa man e minahal na kita.

masyado kasi akong makakalimutin e. tatlong taon na ang nakalipas at inakala kong merong pumipigil sakin.

ako lang pala ang pumipigil sa sarili ko. at hindi ko naman kinailangang gawin yun.

kung naalala ko lang sana yung pangako ko dati e matagal ko na sigurong inamin sa sarili ko. at syempre. sa iyo. sa mga ibang tao na rin.

kaya... naiinis din ako sa sarili ko ngayon. dahil saking pagiging makakalimutin.

basta. nakakainis lang talaga.

ok lang yun. mahal naman kita e.

year++

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 03:51:29 GMT

for the new year, i, squiddy would like to present to you...

a picture of a piglet squid.

piglet squid is love. <3

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and, forecast for the Horse in 2009:

The auspicious stars Yue-de, Yu-tang, Sui-he, Fu-xing and Tai-yang be shining upon those born in the horse year in 2009. The arrival of these stars would indicate good fortune and wealth luck, good business, marriage and newborns to the them. Their hard work at work would be given due recognition and there are chances of promotions and increment. However, they must handle their wealth carefully as there is a likelihood of them losing money.

Their health might not be that good this year as they offend Sifu, Bing-fu and Jie-sha. They are prone to problems of the digestive system and ailments related to the back, kidneys and urinary organs. They must be extra careful when driving on the road.

The horse has a lot of Tao Hua luck this year and this may be good or bad depending on if they are married or single. For the singles, this is good as they might be meeting their Mr or Miss Right. For the married ones, they should beware of inteferences from a third party.

Therefore, those born in the year of the horse must be careful as this would mean that there would be obtacles in the way of their opportunities. They must also be careful of gossips and nasty people who are out to do harm to them. However, they will have better luck in the second half of the year.

resolutions.

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 12:05:35 GMT

because i feel the unusual urge to.

new year's resolutions:

1. specify a time to clean my room thoroughly, and stick to it. 100%. squeaky clean all around. from the floor to the ceiling.
i'm thinking... every two weeks, on Sundays.

2. wake up at 7AM no matter what time i sleep. and actually wake up when i hear the alarm. and yes i do hear the alarm. but usually it gets me conscious enough only to turn it off and go back to sleep.

3. fix up my priority list. and stick to it too. from highest to lowest:
- family
- acads
- lovelife
- friends
- orgs
(spirituality goes in all ranks.)

4. recondition my mind so that studying would be less difficult. or at least seem to be. also, pull up my grades higher so that i become welcome to more benefits. more benefits hooray.

5. praise God more often. praise God praise God praise God.

what are your new year's resolutions?

green.

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 06:21:07 GMT

played around with icons, desktop wallpapers and visual styles.... and ended up with this.

[click on image to full view]

lol. a Meisha-dominated desktop. green. everywhere.

amusing.

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 18:31:43 GMT

i find this blog so amusing all of a sudden.

i just realized that though much time has passed, the only things that's changed here are the entries and the layout. the basic color and theme did not change, though, as well as the content of the sidebar. my likes and my dislikes. i've been too lazy to change my once-favorite links, as well.

and i've just realized as well, this blog is 4 years old.

i created this tiny realm of thought when i was 14. and some of its aspects remain that of my 14-year-old self. i suppose i need to change that.

4 years. goodness. imagine how much can change within 4 years.

i was once in high school, and now i'm in college. i was once shallow, and now i'm trying to read between lines. i once always acted on impulse, and now i'm trying to be practical. i was once a kid...

now... well what do you know. i'm finally a young adult. no longer am i a minor.

sometimes i find that hard to believe. i never really felt 18. how does one feel 18, anyway? is there supposed to be some strange aura when the clock suddenly strikes 12, indicating the arrival of one's birthday? a feeling of rebirth? freedom? as if one's restrictions have suddenly been uplifted?

coz i've never felt that way.

in fact, at times i don't care about my age at all. i've quoted this blog before and i quote it again, "...what matters is not how old the body is but the mind".

in 4 years' time i believe my mind has matured considerably.

yet in 4 years' time, my infatuation for him never subsided at all.

oh for fuck's sake....

i guess some things never do change, no matter what sort of method is used to attempt to induce it.

i'll give this blog a makeover soon, probably come 2009.

happy holidays, folks.

2008 wishlist.

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 16:32:51 GMT

nakakatawa naman ako. nagpopost ng wishlist kung kelan bisperas na ng pasko.

i want:

1. black and white striped socks.
- meron na kong black and blue, black and green, tsaka black and red. pero bakit yung basic na black and white hindi ko na mahanap? at bakit wala akong pera nung nakita ko sya sa shop?!?!?!? sob....

2. 1 Tb external hard drive.
- actually 100-500 Gb pwede na. pero. syempre. para cool. 1 Tb FTW!

3. dark blue long length wig.
- para sa Lime cosplay ko. kilala nyo na. Lime from Saber Marionette J. yung ganung wig.

4. argyle socks, checkered mini skirts and combat boots.
- dahil trip kong magpaka-grunge. kaso kulang ang outfit ko.

5. that freaking P3000 tiger at Blue Magic.
- coz it's cute. pwede ba. XD

6. a digicam.
- coz lotsa people have one and i don't! :(

7. Chucks.
- same as #6.

8. a boyfriend.
- LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL