Reality Bytes. | v5.0 -Autumn Reverie-

1.29.2009

meme++

oy. here we go again.

coz i was tagged by Hitori:

1. Post these rules.
2. Post ten random facts/habits about yourself.
3. Choose ten people to tag and list their names.

i guess i do need to update so here goes... but. i'm not tagging anybody. most of my friends have either quit blogging or have already done this so...

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一 i'd rather hang out with guys than with girls. being the geek that i am, i find it easier to talk to guys about lots of things, from the stuff i like to the stuff that concerns all of humanity. i like talking to guys, especially when it comes to intellectual discussions. i love intellectual discussions. the girls around my area talk of shallower things, from the latest movie releases, to the latest shows, to gossip galore. sometimes one just wants to quit thinking about what's in front of them and just ponder on some things actually worth thinking about.

ニ once i realize i like something i instantly get hooked. Spore, Portal, DTX Mania, thousand piece jigsaws, papercraft, anime, photo manipulation, coding... gawd see how geeky i am? haha.

三 i love autumn. i love orange. what started out as an attempt to join the blogging community led to the creation of a random blog name (fierydepths) which triggered my obsessive-compulsive behavior (fiery in fierydepths==orange/peach layout) which led to me getting obsessed with autumn themes and colors. and with that coinciding with the season my birthday belongs to, i think it's awesome.

四 i used to hate essays. i didn't know how to write essays before. compared to my classmates answering essay questions in one or two paragraphs, i used to answer mine in one or two sentences. now look at how i constuct my blog entries. woohoo.

五 i am a walking contradiction. case in point: i keep saying i ABSOLUTELY HATE mushy gushy sappiness. but... look at my recent posts below!

六 i tend to practice the mañana habit a whole lot. it's either because i have too much to do or i've had nothing to do. i need more inspiration, more motivation, more will power. and probably more coffee, less caffeine tolerance. arrgh. acads, acads, acads.

七 i am allergic to peanuts, and will always be allergic to peanuts. even a whiff of peanut scent would get my throat to swell and itch and make me go berzerk. peanuts can kill me. i used to be allergic to other stuff too. some other nuts, fish and other seafood, citrus fruits, chocolate, certain soaps and lotions... yeah. i was a freak.

八 the only decent thing i can do in a household is cleaning. i can't cook, wash clothes, iron, water plants properly, do any gardening at all, or sew clothes. if i had a husband who'd request me to stay at home as a housewife i'd say HELL NO.

九 i want to learn japanese, but my mañana habit always, always gets to me. i'll find some motivation eventually...

十 i am sleepy, i am going to sleep now. that counts as a fact ok? XD

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squiddy escaped reality @ 06:46 pm
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i've been scanning through my past entries in this blog. again.

i was actually quite amused by what i saw. i saw, inscribed in virtual ink, the oh-so-amazingly-complex thoughts of a what... 15-year-old? 16-year-old? apparently i really do have a wide vocabulary and an even wider imagination to come up with so many metaphors. XD

but i noticed something that most posts had in common: the atmosphere of depression. the complaints of always feeling insatiable, always feeling half-empty. always feeling that something's missing.

and after typing those last few words above, i just realized that right now i feel the exact opposite.

while scanning through those depressing posts, my past work of fiction whispered to me through every scroll, "when was the last time you felt complete?"

my heart answered for me, "just now."

mind over heart... somehow that doesn't work at all anymore. but at least it served its purpose the first few months after i committed to it. i was told that to revert (read: heart over mind) would be difficult once i got used to thinking "mind over heart". i didn't mind. i thought i could stay in my zombie state forever.

eventually i found out i was wrong, and that i really needed to change back to how i once was. but, it was hard. from being a zombie i had to revert to being human once again.

only coz i believe i've found someone who would keep me human, who would keep me sane, who would give me what i've been missing and patch them into the holes i had in the fabric of my soul.

and. immensely. i thank him for that.

nakakainis ka.

oo, ikaw.

ikaw na kausap ko kagabi.

alam mo kung bakit? mas lalo kasi kitang namimiss dahil sa mga sinabi mo kagabi.

nakakainis ka. wala ka sa tabi ko.

nakakainis ka. di kita mayakap.

yun pa naman ang kinahihiligan kong gawin. yumakap sa tao.

natatawa ako sa sarili ko. naisip ko na sana noon pa man e minahal na kita.

masyado kasi akong makakalimutin e. tatlong taon na ang nakalipas at inakala kong merong pumipigil sakin.

ako lang pala ang pumipigil sa sarili ko. at hindi ko naman kinailangang gawin yun.

kung naalala ko lang sana yung pangako ko dati e matagal ko na sigurong inamin sa sarili ko. at syempre. sa iyo. sa mga ibang tao na rin.

kaya... naiinis din ako sa sarili ko ngayon. dahil saking pagiging makakalimutin.

basta. nakakainis lang talaga.

ok lang yun. mahal naman kita e.

for the new year, i, squiddy would like to present to you...

a picture of a piglet squid.

piglet squid is love. <3

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and, forecast for the Horse in 2009:

The auspicious stars Yue-de, Yu-tang, Sui-he, Fu-xing and Tai-yang be shining upon those born in the horse year in 2009. The arrival of these stars would indicate good fortune and wealth luck, good business, marriage and newborns to the them. Their hard work at work would be given due recognition and there are chances of promotions and increment. However, they must handle their wealth carefully as there is a likelihood of them losing money.

Their health might not be that good this year as they offend Sifu, Bing-fu and Jie-sha. They are prone to problems of the digestive system and ailments related to the back, kidneys and urinary organs. They must be extra careful when driving on the road.

The horse has a lot of Tao Hua luck this year and this may be good or bad depending on if they are married or single. For the singles, this is good as they might be meeting their Mr or Miss Right. For the married ones, they should beware of inteferences from a third party.

Therefore, those born in the year of the horse must be careful as this would mean that there would be obtacles in the way of their opportunities. They must also be careful of gossips and nasty people who are out to do harm to them. However, they will have better luck in the second half of the year.